We Crave A Different Kind Of Buzz

Song: Royals...Lorde

I really like this song because it's got a really chill vibe and a really subtle fuck you craziness to it.

I was going to make another big post questioning life and feelings and whether anything is truly worth it and what really is going to happen after you die and where do babies come from and stuff but I'd really rather sleep away my problems for the next couple hours.

I guess I could probably start a running update about something that doesn't suck. I've been back on that lucid dream training life. Today I started reality checks. I plug my nose and try to breathe and pinch myself while asking if I'm awake or asleep. I'm excited and scared to see where this goes because I already feel really matrixy sometimes. I'll go somewhere and can't remember getting there, and sometimes have a foggy feeling that things are off, that they're not real for a little while at a time.

Last night was nice. We went to mongo and the drive-in and saw Wolverine and Grown Ups 2 and fought mosquitoes.


Alright, well, back to bed.

Oh, I also finally contacted a therapist. It's time. It's definitely time.

Here's a picture of some fancy ice cubes from tumblr

But That's The Whole Tragic Point, My Friends

song: If I Could Feel Again...Pretty Lights

I just got an email for exit counseling regarding my student loans. Bro, I have like over a month before I'm leaving and you already want to hound me about paying back loans? Screw you. I shouldn't even pay back the loans, being that that would be an adult-type activity and this school does NOT view me as an adult. Rigid attendance policies and absolutely no inter-dorm visitation EVER. Okay. I just can't wait to get home and get going. I'll get a job, use my newly found money management skills (TROLOLOLOL) to save up for a car, finish my associate's degree (that part's gonna SUCK) and then do some technical shit.

In other news, I have to drive to Orlando tomorrow. :((((((((((((( I cannot put enough chins on that sad face to emphasize the frown I am feeling. What's worse is that I won't get to drive back to my bed and all of my own things and the small amount of comfort I have established in my own room until Sunday. Why can't I say no? WHY.

Dead.

Anyway, uh, I've watched some really good movies lately. I've also watched some really crappy ones. The good ones were Insidious; Cabin in the Woods; Girl, Interrupted; American Beauty; The Matrix; Fight Club; One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest; and Hard Candy. I would highly recommend all of these. Surprisingly, one of my favorites was The Matrix. That might have a lot to do with the way Keanu Reeves looks two hours, six minutes, and 51 seconds into the movie after he destroys the leader agent...ermahgerd.

So when I was looking for that exact moment in VLC media player, I was also listening to Benny Benassi's "Love is Gonna Save Us"...I can't tell you the awesomeness of the audiovisual mesh that just happened, so I'll put a little together in moviemaker so you can see for yourself. <3>

ER. MAHGERD. That was really quickly and kind of badly put together, but I like it. So much, in fact, that I'm done with this post now cos I'm too excited. AND I just realized how awesomely that song works...Trinity's love DID save Neo. UGH<3 p="p">